Is it just anxiety that makes me withdrawal from life? Am I really that tired? What triggered my outburst this time? Are my vitamin or hormone levels off again?
I think I may have stumbled onto something, and I want to share with you. I have taught about this topic before in the context of mentoring, but it never occurred that I am experiencing compassion burn-out. I have written about one child’s post-concussion headaches, caregiving for over two years now. I think I mentioned my oldest is still at home because she is not mature enough to be on her own due to her condition. I also have a daughter with high anxiety and many borderline traits for mental ilness. Plus factor on my work as a social worker/counselor/detective/minister. Add to the equation lack of spousal support, no social life, poor diet and no energy. I think its the perfect recipe for disaster.
Friday was my first hint, one tiff between the girls and I lost it. Thankfully I didn’t say or do anything hurtful, but I stewed the rest of the evening. Everyone else was fine minutes later…
I am the powder keg and everything around me threatens to blow my world apart.
I know what I am supposed to do to keep calm and do self care stuff. How about running away, that sounds tempting?! I feel like there will be no end to this even if I make myself feel better.
To remind myself (and possibly you) here are a couple self care links. Happy Monday!