Massive amounts of anxiety are crippling me. I am trying to be intentional and not just react to situations, but I feel like its not working. It appears that a few of my friends are being attacked right now, as well. By attacked I mean circumstances will not allow them to rest. Being a Christian and in ministry, I will acknowledge some level of resistance and additional struggles that fall outside normal. We can talk about that separately if you like.
Meanwhile, I think back to how I am grateful for many things in my life and I believe it will be okay eventually. There have been times in my life where I didn’t have that assurance. Like my Independence Day, back in ’06. Not July 4th, rather March 1, when my self destructive relationship ended with a restraining order. Let’s save that for another day too.
I hate promises. I am a very straightforward and blunt person. “Say what you mean & mean what you say.” I have trust issues and I’m a control freak. Promises mean very little to me.
- I give up my expectations for today
- I surrender my heart
- I trust in the assurances I have
- Fulfilled = Carry on
- Rejected = Move ahead
- Pending = More surrender
Enjoy your day