Another month, another random series of life-altering events. Honestly, if I was not praying specifically to be used by God however He desires, I think I’d have been committed to the psych ward by now!
But I have prayed and surrendered to any and all changes. I do believe that change is crucial to faith. New adventures are about attitude and the willingnness to experience the ride.
In the past month, I helped plan a wonderful party for 1,000 of our friends. The next day I left my job at the church. Shared my daughter’s fear of failing grades and truancy letters. And began the process of enrolling in college without federal aid. I am realizing that I am chronically late to everything regardless of how prepared I try to be. I trip up and bottom out when I strive to be perfect. These things are patterns throughout my entire life.
I have found five conclusions to summarize my theory that I am simply truant (not being present in my own life).
2. My judgment is reactionary and emotional, but also filled with confidence.
3. The mastery of ‘Courage Under Fire’ & ‘Resourcefulness’ after the fact.
4. Passionately, yet blindly, pursuing self-awareness & other-centered love.
Until next time, friends, let’s pray it is not a month away…